For the past 3/4 years I've been on the verge of a Nervous Breakdown but can never really find the time to do it, although there are times when I give in to depression,and often feel that nobody really cares(not true) but thats how I feel, Ive tried the happy pills they so readily hand out and Theraphy which just makes me feel that I'm being indulgent, although I know helps many, the weekly visit to my therapist just made me feel inadequete and unable to cope(I have control issues..lol) plus I always had the nagging feeling that she didn't really "Get Me" though she probably did(I'm clearly not a suitable candidate for help), my main problem being that I want to be the one to help and advise, I want to absorb other's pain(clearly colossal control issues) and become upset when I can't change things, and impatient with those who do not deal with the consequences of their actions(see the contradiction). Being part of Jland has helped in so many ways and the caring and sharing that I see on a daily basis restores my wavering faith, so I was very touched when pamhttp://journals.aol.co.uk/pamal3/almost40/ made these awards, and genrously awarded one to me.
The recipients please choose a graphic and add to your sidebar and please award to 5 others.
Jan-Serendipity
Mary-Just Mary
Sheria-On my mind
Joan-Joans Musings
Chrissie- Almost Paradise
Jeanette and husband Mike-Jeannettes Jottings
Well thats six but hey!
Pam also made a graphic for special friends I think your all special so please add to your sidebar's
Lovely of Pam to give us all a little boost, and it made me smile.
My back seems to be improving every week, great to be walking fully upright I still have some pain, but certainly more manageable, the muscle relaxants help too lol, and I had a second date with my new friend, which went very well, and planning to meet again soon, woo hoo thats boost if ever there was one.
Thats all from me today, take care all!
psst..Ive decided not to have a breakdown well today at any rate.
