Goodbye

So it's goodbye from Me

 

Bye Bye

 

http://cayasm-isntshegreat.blogspot.com

 

 

Hello

Hello all longtime no see, and just in time to find out Jland will be no more, although i've not been around much of late, but have been keeping up with the various happenings, and I don't want to lose my friends at Jland.

I've set up my journal on Blogger, with just a small hello entry, I'll be spending the day transfering my blog over to Blogger(joy)
least it will keep me out of trouble...lol if i don't rip my hair out first...lol.

My new home:

http://cayasm-isntshegreat.blogspot.com
hope I've got the link right.

See you all on the flipside

Love Yasmin
xxx

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ON THE VERGE

For the past 3/4 years I've been on the verge of a Nervous Breakdown but can never really find the time to do it, although there are times when I give in to depression,and often feel that nobody really cares(not true) but thats how I feel, Ive tried the happy pills they so readily hand out and Theraphy which just makes me feel that I'm being indulgent, although I know helps many, the weekly visit to my therapist just made me feel inadequete and unable to cope(I have control issues..lol) plus I always had the nagging feeling that she didn't really "Get Me" though she probably did(I'm clearly not a suitable candidate for help), my main problem being that I want to be the one to help and advise, I want to absorb other's pain(clearly colossal control issues) and become upset when I can't change things, and impatient with those who do not deal with the consequences of their actions(see the contradiction). Being part of Jland has helped in so many ways and the caring and sharing that I see on a daily basis restores my wavering faith, so I was very touched when pamhttp://journals.aol.co.uk/pamal3/almost40/ made these awards, and genrously awarded one to me.   

 

The recipients please choose a graphic and add to your sidebar and please award to 5 others.

Jan-Serendipity

Mary-Just Mary

Sheria-On my mind

Joan-Joans Musings

Chrissie- Almost Paradise

Jeanette and husband Mike-Jeannettes Jottings

Well thats six but hey!

Pam also made a graphic for special friends I think your all special so please add to your sidebar's

Lovely of Pam to give us all a little boost, and it made me smile.

My back seems to be improving every week, great to be walking fully upright I still have some pain, but certainly more manageable, the muscle relaxants help too lol, and I had a second date with my new friend, which went very well, and planning to meet again soon, woo hoo thats boost if ever there was one.

Thats all from me today, take care all!

psst..Ive decided not to have a breakdown well today at any rate.

Tags: Caring Awards Friendships

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WHERE DOES THE TIME GO?

Goodness it's been about six weeks since I last posted on here, time does certainly fly without realising it, were almost in June the last few months just seem to have disppeared.

Anyway to catch up a little for those of you who remember in my last entry, I had complained of "Back pain" which has been ongoing for well over a year now, to be honest sometimes crippling pain, my doctor seemed unable to come up with any soloutions other than painkillers telling me that I was depressed and offering yet more pills which I declined. Well three weeks ago I went to see the Osteopath, and after careful examination decided that my spine is mis-aligned and was resting on my Siatic nerve, which would explain the pins and needles and swollen right ankle, I can tell you it was a relief to have some kind of answer, and that it was treatable.

Changes are to made not least by spending less time online (yeah right) as my sitting position doesn't help matters, also the treatment so far just manipulation to correct the mis-alignment have helped greatly I'm actually walking fully upright, and able to walk short distances more comfortably, the relif as you can imagine is huge, also doing exercises to strengthen my back (Alexander technique) which I do every day, in time I'm also thinking of taking up Yoga but not quite yet as my lower back and legs are still quite weak, but hey I feel so much better and my mood has lifted considerably.

All going well I shall be able to do my fulltime teaching course, hopefully starting in either July or August, that just fills me with joy not being the kind of person who likes being unproductive.

Other news last week I went on a date the first in a longtime ..lol I was abit worried not really feeling the best, but with a couple of muscle relaxants followed later by a few glasses of wine I felt somewhat invincible and all was well with the world, we had a really nice time going to a local restaurant, and to a music bar afterwards, not that I tripped the light fantastic, but merely managed to sway in my seat which was enough, but that could have been the wine and pills, but who cares I had a nice evening out with good company, we have been talkinga lot on the phone and are meeting next week again woo hoo, Yasmin's getting her groove back..lol and next  time I'll be up on that dance floor doing my version of the Fandango.

Sorry it's been so long and will try to be more regular(I mean writing posts).

Everybody be well and take care

Graphic by Donna.

Tags: Osteopath Dating Dancing

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IT'S BEEN A WHILE

It's been a while since I posted anything, not that much has been happening, and it seems like winter has lasted an awful longtime.

To be honest I've not felt like posting much although I keep up with journals, but even that has been half hearted at times, which seems to have been a sign of the times the last few months I notice regular journalers are not as active of late, it's quite hard to keep up with others when thing are not so great in your own back yard so to speak.

For those of you who may remember I've been suffering back pain for over a year now while at times it seems better but mostly I'm in quite a lot of pain, unabale to sit or stand for long periods, I've been doing the Alexander Technique which has helped some, and of course pain killers which I hate to rely on, but a necessary evil, I know there are others in greater pain than I, but can only deal with mine, I've also had a stomach bug which really knocked me for six but have recovered quite well from that.

Until I can do something about my back I cannot continue with my plans to train as a teacher, as my concentration would not what I would like it to be, my GP can offer no real solutions so I've booked to see an Osteopath next week, luckily my private healthcare still has a few months to run so it will cost very little, so generally feeling down in the dumps which my GP thinks it's depression(oh joy) so I'll just have to find a way to work through that.

I really loathe losing my interests, and feeling like crap, I'm such an active person not so much in body but in mind , but I think just "doing " for so long has left me depleted, clapped out at 43 lol.

Sorry for such a poor entry but i juste wanted to touch base, and with luck normal service will resume ASAP.

Take care

Thanks Donna for the graphic.

Tags: Depression, Back Pain

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I'VE BEEN TAGGED

Sheria from On My Mind has tagged me:

 

Rules

1. The rules of the game

2. Each player answers questions about themselves.

3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people, and posts their names, goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment letting them know they've been tagged.

 

Questions

1. WHAT WHERE YOU DOING TEN YEARS AGO

Hard to remember anything specific but ten years ago after doing a variety of different jobs I went back into Pub Management, starting at the Red Lion in Westminster, which is right by the Houses Of Parliament, we also had a lot of MP's who used to drink in the pub we were also a 5 minute walk away from Downing Street, quite an exciting time, we used to see and hear a lot even before it was on the News.

 

2. WHAT ARE 5 THINGS ON MY TO-DO  LIST TODAY

I haven't even started yet..lol but here goes

a trip to the post office

clean my kitchen floor

finish my book, a crime novel

go for a walk

make my appointment for a facial later in the week(thats my treat to myself)

3. SNACKS I ENJOY

Chocolate, Chocolate, we have a shop in town that make fresh cream filled chocolates so after the post office I'll go there.

Olives, Wotsits, Crispbreads with Hummous or Taramsalata, Chashew nuts(so moreish)

4. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU WERE A BILLIONAIRE

Set up womens shelters so families can stay together offering practical advise on how to move forward, also with offer respite care to those who look after aged parents or handicapped children anyone in need.

Offering school leavers who don't want further education a chance to learn a trade, and be productive.

Nursery places and after school care for single working mothers/fathers

Walk the great Wall of China, swim with Dolphins, go on a Safari, have dinner with George Clooney (if I was a billionaire I could make that happen..lol).

5. BAD HABITS

Impatience

Overeating

Chocolate

Not always keeping in touch with friends and loved ones

Being too hard on myself(perfection is very hard to attain)

6. 5 PLACES I HAVE LIVED

Neasden where I grew up, and various places around London

Colchester, been here for 17 years

7. 5 JOBS I'VE HAD

Chef

Nursing Assistant

Clerical worker

Pub Manager

Shop assistant in Marks and Spencers when at school

 

5 people I want to know about:

Lisa, life on a bison farm

Pam, almost 40

Sunny Seth, palm harbour

Joyce, my extremely simple life

Jan, Serendipity

 

I have'n written anything for ages doing more readin than writing, so this was a good way for me to get back into it

Take care all

 

Yasmin

xx

 

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HAPPY ST PATRICKS DAY

 

To all those that celebrate "HAPPY ST PATRICKS DAY", quite a nice day for me for the first time in years I don't have to oraganise a St Pats Party at work, nor find myself swimming in the black stuff(Guiness), and serving up Irish Stew with Soda Bread, oh the joys of no longer being a licensee, saying that it was great fun,during the festivities not so fun when everybody gets hammered(drunk), and no Green Lager..lol.

Saying all that though it was great fun, we used to spend ages doing the pub up in the morning, plus well all used to wear the big hats(on display above) it's anice thing to do and next month we have St Georges Day.

So just a few pictures of a couple of my pubs and a video to get you in the mood from the comfort of your computer screen.

  RIVERDANCE

Have fun all

 

 

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