Well tommorrow we reach the end of the year, and for me in some ways it can't come soon enough.
As I have already documented this has been a difficult year for me,both professionally and personally, I barely escaped with my sanity intact, but I'm still here. Having been bullied most of the year at work and suffering panic attacks and an almost total loss of confidence and self belief, well I'm pleased to say that the aforementioned is very slowly returning, it will take time but I'm prepared to put the work in.
I'm now working in an happier enviroment so hopefully and will thrive again.
It's not all gloom and doom there have been quite a few positives, I've started investing in my friendships a lot more, as I've said a phone call e-mail is all it takes, and the dividends are huge plus I've made new friends here at J-Land and online in general also writing my journal has helped me put things into some sort of perspective.
The lessons I've learned as the old year draws to a close, are that I have to take ownership of my life and the choices I make and certainly not to let anyone have power over me to the point where I lose myself.
I'm not going to make resolutions, but try to make positive changes to be a person that I like and can be proud of.
I've been thinking of my Mum a lot lately and how much I miss her, she had so much drive and determination and achieved so much in her life but did it the hard way she is my inspiration, someone said to me you should be over it by now(3years) my response is that I will learn to live with it but never get over her death I mean to say who loves you like your mum, mine was my touchstone and I wish I let her know that(she probably does).
Tommorrow George and I are going to an Italian Restaurant to bring the new year in it's very nice there and we should have lot of fun, on Monday we may brave the sales, back to work on Tuesday.
I'm looking forward to 2007 I think this is going to be my year!!!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE IN J-LAND
thats it till next year
4 comments:
I hope the new year is a better one for you although I think you are really back on track and strong now. How can you ever get over losing your mum, dad or anyone you love dearly, what a stupid remark that was. I'm sure your mum is watching down on you and looking out for you and her legacy to you is your strength. Hugs. Terry x
I do hope your wishes for 2007 come true ,love Jan xx
Happy new year to you too
Happy New Year Yasmyn!
lots of love, natalie
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