For the past 3/4 years I've been on the verge of a Nervous Breakdown but can never really find the time to do it, although there are times when I give in to depression,and often feel that nobody really cares(not true) but thats how I feel, Ive tried the happy pills they so readily hand out and Theraphy which just makes me feel that I'm being indulgent, although I know helps many, the weekly visit to my therapist just made me feel inadequete and unable to cope(I have control issues..lol) plus I always had the nagging feeling that she didn't really "Get Me" though she probably did(I'm clearly not a suitable candidate for help), my main problem being that I want to be the one to help and advise, I want to absorb other's pain(clearly colossal control issues) and become upset when I can't change things, and impatient with those who do not deal with the consequences of their actions(see the contradiction). Being part of Jland has helped in so many ways and the caring and sharing that I see on a daily basis restores my wavering faith, so I was very touched when pamhttp://journals.aol.co.uk/pamal3/almost40/ made these awards, and genrously awarded one to me.
The recipients please choose a graphic and add to your sidebar and please award to 5 others.
Jan-Serendipity
Mary-Just Mary
Sheria-On my mind
Joan-Joans Musings
Chrissie- Almost Paradise
Jeanette and husband Mike-Jeannettes Jottings
Well thats six but hey!
Pam also made a graphic for special friends I think your all special so please add to your sidebar's
Lovely of Pam to give us all a little boost, and it made me smile.
My back seems to be improving every week, great to be walking fully upright I still have some pain, but certainly more manageable, the muscle relaxants help too lol, and I had a second date with my new friend, which went very well, and planning to meet again soon, woo hoo thats boost if ever there was one.
Thats all from me today, take care all!
psst..Ive decided not to have a breakdown well today at any rate.
24 comments:
yasmin,pam gave it to you,as i did as well well the last one anyway, for the simple reason you are a friend to us all on jland, you are always nearly the first to add comment on mine, and i appreciate them. as we all do. so,nervous breakdown?? if you ever feel the need to talk,scream,cry whatever i am always here for you. but think i will be part of a very long queue to listen to you. take care, glad the dates going well, look after that back lots of love mort xxxxxxxxxxxx
I am so pleased you decided tp postpone your break down till another day , I know just how you have been feeling ,well of course I dont cos we are all different ,but this time last year I was struggling wasnt I ? and then a few weeks ago my back went ,so although it is so much better now it lets me int o see how you are feeling ,I do hope you feel more like your old self soon dear friend and thank you for the award which I am honoured to recieve from you ...love Jan xx
Hey Yasmin. Lovely to see another entry from you. I am so pleased the dates are going well. I am here for you anytime too. Mort was spot on....There would be a big queue of people wanting to listen to you because you are a star. Love Pam xx
No breakdowns allowed this week in J-Land. Got that girlfriend? Glad to hear your date(s) went well and more on the way. What fun. Have a great week.
Hugs, Joyce
A wise choice to delay your breakdown. We'd all miss you too much!
Glad your back is a little better, and very glad to hear that your second date also went well!
Take care,
Beth
I loved your entry and was agreeing the whole way through. I wanna come too when you have a breakdown two should be more fun than one. I'm glad you're starting to feel better now. (Eyebrow raised) Ummm who's the new friend? Glad you're having fun. I've been thinking that I am to busy taking care of everything around me INSTEAD of taking care of me. I'm bored and ready to move on I feel like I'm in a rut all the time. Thank you so much for the Caring Friend Award you passed on to me you passed on a smile to let you know and a Special Friend Award thanks for the pick me up I needed it today.
Hugs, Chrissie
I too have tried the happy pills and a very brief bout with therapy and felt much the same way you do. Now I just prefer to live on the edge. I am pleased to hear your back is improving, I hope it continues to improve for you.
xx
Lisa
I'm happy to see that you got this award. Between awards and a new guyfriend and nice weather, you have not time for a breakdown now. Stay strong and may your back mend quickly. Dawn
wuuuu huuuu on the new 'friend'.... great news on the back.... and well... what can I say.. you so deserve the award.
hugs
d
Thank you, thank you, thank you for selecting me as one of your award recipients. I am so touched. Don't feel badly that you feel on the verge of a nervous breakdown, I've been on the verge for years. I think that the trick is to find the right therapist, one that makes you feel comfortable. I tried several before I found someone who I felt understood me. I haven't been in tehrapy for about ten years, but I'd go back in a hot minute if I felt myself truly slipping into the dark place again. However, being a little nuts is the only way that I keep my sanity. I know that doesn't really make sense to most people, but I suspect that you understand what I mean.
Seeing your friend again, huh? Ooo la la!
Be good to yourself,
Sheria
Dear Yasmyn, hi!
I am so sorry that you have been feeling this way for awhile and I hope it stops!
I am so happy however that yuo were awarded these friendship awards!
And Yasmyn how cool that yuo have six friends here who you have deemed worthy so such a great award!
Now I want to know them too!
ny chance you will write more about them later?
love ya,natalie
hello yasmin, i am sorry that you have been so down, i think that prehaps you are with the wrong therapist if you don't feel right with them, try finding another who you do feel comfortable with. The the therapy wont work if you are not with the right person. You really deserve the caring friend award, well done!! Glad to hear things are going well with your new friend, just what you need right now, good luck i hope it works out well for you, enjoy it!!! take care email if you need a friend i am here. mrs t xxxxxxxxx
Hi Yasmin, so sorry to hear you have been down it must be catching. Maybe the nice weather will help as I know you are having a sunny day today (watching the tennis from Queens and it looks a great day. Not so nice here very windy but warm with a bit of sun. Thank you so much for the award it was lovely of you. You always seem so cheerful when you write your journal its hard to think of you down but you are right j-land helps so much. I lack female company and feel like I am chatting to the girls its great. I bought a Harlan Coben today 'Darkest Fear' You recommended him to me a while back so I will give it a try. In the middle of a Martina Cole at the moment in hardback am going to have muscles on my muscles by the time I get it finished. Take care. Love Joan.
She is a wonderful person and I go thru depression too I have tried it all but have learned it is something I will have to live with .. medication only prolonged me dealing with life issues so I stopped mine but I don't recommend it to others .. have a good day
hugs
Sherry
Thank you so much for the award(I sent you an email about the rest of the entry ;-).
~Mary
Never thought I was a candidate for depression, but I feel like I'm not as happy as I alwaus with all the things going on in my life. I haven't been writting in my journal, because I'm not so sure what to write. I can't even speak to my neighbors because I don't know what to say. I just want everything back the way it was. (about 2 yrs ago) You seem very compassionate and caring. It is kind of funny that you said you have no time to go into depression. LOL. Really, in this day and age.......there is no time for alot of anything. Keep your chin up, things just have to get better. :)
Hi Yasmin~I'm so glad your back is feeling better. And a date...good for you! Though I am sorry to hear about the depression. I've never really had a problem with depression although I think every doctor want to give pills and therapy because we've been abused. Eh : / The therapists would tell me I was coping just fine. And I never saw a difference with the pills, although, my g/f says she definately benefits from medication. Have agood time on your next date, hugs, Bethe
CONGRATS! You deserve it.
I had have my share of ups, and downs too. So, I can relate. Thank you for all of the kind post, and comments that you left. I hope that things get better for you soon. Glad to hear your back is already improving.
Best Wishes
Gina
You know, I may have told you this before, but if I didn't. We have a lot in common. I feel like I was reading about me when I read about you. I have GAD & serious back and neck, etc. issues. I normally do not have problems with depression, for which I am grateful. Let me hear from you now and then.
xoxo
Merry
Another great entry and I do think you are a caring friend to many. I am familiar with some of the recipients of your caring friend award and think they are deserving. I am not familiar with Pam so will check her journal out. Jeannette is a very loving person. I have been the recipient of her kindness in the past. I wanted to say that my sessions with therapists were not too successful either probably for similar reasons. I went to one who made me cry every time we met, so I finally quit him. Another I thought just did not get my history, and I ended up having to educate her, but she could not seem to relieve my stress. The best one I had was a retired head of our state mental hospital, a psychiatrist who was very iinterested in my dreams, and for six months my dream machine kicked in wonderfully. He never tried to direct me at all and I will never forget him for that, but funds ran out. An east Indian psychiatrist gave me a very valuable relaxing exercise with deep breathing to control panic attacks when I was weak. I just don't think these people are wonder workers as Ann Landers suggested, they are just human and may sometimes understand but on the whole I think a caring friend does just as well most of the time. Gerry http://journals.aol.com/gehi6/daughters-of-the-shadow-men/
Somehow I missed this entry and am sorry I'm just now getting by. I hope you're doing okay.
Lori
Big Congrats Yasmyn!
Cheers and I care ..you are a wonderful person.
Hope the sun shines in a big way on you soon.
huggggggggggggggggs
natalie
Oh my friend, I never got an alert for this entry. Thank you so very much. I am honoured to accept. I am worried about you. It has been so long since you posted here, I did not realise just how long. I hope you will come back. I know that I miss you. I do hope you are feeling better by now. Hugs.
http://journals.aol.co.uk/jeanno43/JeannettesJottings/
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